Paperwork, Stress and Super Stroppy Lungs...

Hi All,

Well, I have not been sleeping at all well the last 10-12 days. Was hoping it was something that would just resolve by itself but it really hadn't started to resolve by this Monday after days of frustration and tears I saw a Doctor at my GP practice to ask for help!! He reluctantly prescribed a few days worth sleeping tablets..... Nothing!!! Except sheer exhaustion and possibly the meds kicked in to allow me a few snatched hours of sleep Wednesday night!!

The upshot of running myself into the ground like this is my sinus infection came back with vengence and I have the grumblings of a chest infection brewing as the old lungs are a tad crackly! I spoke to my normal GP today and got a script for some more aminophylinne tablets as I was running desparatly low - told her how I was feeling and she has given me strict orders for the weekend mmmm!!! (Joy!)

I have an appointment with her on Monday so hopefully it'll hold off till then, I'm feeling rather deflated by it all as I thought I was OK ish but splat!!!

My appeal hearing is this coming Thursday! More stress just what the doctor ordered hey??? I spent most of yesterday and all of today finalising the paperwork and organising witnesses for my hearing, which is prior to any potential tribunal!! I'm thoroughly stressed and I think these shinanigans (sp) could have contributed to my sleepless nights and subsequent health decline as it usually follows that sort of course-becomming more prone to infections the more stress I'm under (I dont really know why that is!!)!!

Part of me is scared the appeal will be successful I suppose, sounds ridiculous I know but I'm just not fit enough for work at this minute I feel poorly and run down and feel like I need to sleep for a year first!!! :-( Then part of me would be disappointed if its unsuccessful as I then have to go through the stress of a tribunal procedure!!! grrrr - cant win, but I truely dont know what I want anymore - that place caused me so much stress and now I'm out of that I'm not convinced I ever want to return to all that bullying and back-biteing again!!

Well finally on Wednesday next week I see the ENT surgeon - I have to give 2 hours for the appointment as this is hopefully gonna fix my poor broken septum!!! I perforated the septum in my nose years ago and over the last few years it has got lots worse bleeding daily and the perforation has grown - a lot!!! Dont know what can be done but hopefully at this appointment I will find out!!!


Anyways I'm off to have a neb and my tea - I am rather hungry!!!

Speak soon peeps, take care all,
lotsa lv
Rattles Xxxxx

...on the road to nowhere!

Hi all,

So, Yesterdays meeting at remploy was great, gonna pop in next Tuesday and go through some job searches with the chap there so looking OK on that front! Yesterday afternoon I rearranged some appointments I am not gonna make due to being here there and everywhere over the next couple of weeks!!! I organised my neurology appointment for this morning, knowing that today was going to be particularly stressful and busy day anyway but hey ho!!

I got up at ridiculous O'clock this morning and caught the first of 2 buses into my local hospital! I arrived just 5 mins late for my 9.30am appointment to find that the stupid woman who told me it was today had made a mistake and it was really tomorrow - which I cannot do!!!! I spent a while on the phone to her with her giggling saying 'oh stupid me.... sorry' then we rearranged it for a few weeks time. Needless to say I was not amused! I have just returned home after the mad trek back home, made a cup of coffee and have a few moments to myself before my piano student comes round for an hours lesson! Then, as if it wasn't already busy enough today, I have to dash across to the other side of the city to the other hospital to get some results from the all important bone clinic re - my bone strength and possible osteoporosis!! My goodness, I am tired!!!

Anyways, don't think its going to be an easier day tomorrow either due to the early start and trek to the coach station to get back to my parents!! Ah well!! Least the chest does feel slightly better today so I don't have that to contend with too lol!!! :-)

Hope everyone is doing well. Speak soon all take care
Lv Rattles Xxxx