Beginnings and endings.

Hi Everyone,

This weekend was a difficult weekend for me its a month of anniversaries in february and all of them are hard, the only real blessing was my beautiful nephew's first birthday yesterday, however after a lovely day with my family I started to travel back to my house when my mum called me to tell me that my grandad had died.

This week is gonna be a tough week as I still dont really know how i feel. Im sad and upset but finding it really hard to deal with my feelings about it all. It has come really close to the 2 year anniversay of my grandma's death and when my grandma died I was devestated.

I am off to wales for the funeral at the weekend and will see my reletives and my grandad's dear friend who I am sure is finding everything very difficult. At the moment I am trying to process everything as I feel so bad for having not seen my grandad for a while as I have not been well and neither has he - the times I have been ok he has had bugs which could have made me very ill and vice versa so it has been a while since I last saw him and for this I feel very guilty and ashamed.

I will scribble again after the funeral and stuff.

Take care everyone and speak soon

lotsa lv Rattles Xxxx